It's very important that you see a specialist; you could start by consulting your primary care team. To make it easier for you to seek help, we could explore what aspects of your current situation are causing you distress: perhaps you feel lonely, uncomfortable interacting with people in person, feel like you're wasting time and missing opportunities, are sad or anxious, aren't sleeping well, or feel tired. If we can understand what's bothering you and help you see that things can improve, you'll be more receptive to asking for help.